Hi, Betty.  My gosh, you have a lot of things going on - I might be pulling out my hair, too!  Not to make light of that.  I think there is an actual disorder that it's called, but I can't remember what it is.  Anyway, I'm wondering who diagnosed you with the depression and anxiety; is it the same doctor who is giving you all of the pain medication?  I can't figure out how you can work 80 hours a week taking all this stuff!  Sounds like you need some sick leave.  Do you have a therapist?  I'd guess not, don't know how you'd fit it into an 80-hour a week job.  But I really think you should be seeing somebody to help you manage all the stress from both your work and personal life, not to mention the depression.  So, have you been given antidepressants, as well?  If so, does one of your doctors, at least, know about everything you are taking at the same time?  Just my opinion, but I think you need to hop off the treadmill you're on for a little rejuvenation and start taking care of yourself.  You deserve it just as much as anyone else.  I'm thinking of that song "Superman" that has a line that goes, "Even heroes have the right to bleed."  Please let us know what we can do to help, or if you just want to vent - this is a good place for that.  Keep us posted.