Hey there...

Well I will tell ya...I am not a psychologist so I cannot diagnose you but I can say that you are most likely a great guy who is going through a rough time right now.  Ending a relationship can be difficult for anyone.  You may have a lot of emotional residue or feelings left over from your break up.  Even when people are out of the picture you can still be feeling the impact of how they affected your life.  This is a big change. 

It sounds like you want someone to talk to, but you are not sure who to trust.  Sometimes it is hard to discuss personal feelings with friends and family because we are afraid we will be judged. 

Would you be willing to try to talk to a professional counselor or therapist?  I think there is a lot on your mind and it might be helpful to get it all out. 

There is also a support group right here on this depression site.  Here is the link.  Sometimes talking to others who are also facing personal challenges can help. 

You do not need to suffer alone.  Please do reach out.  It is worth the risk.