Hi there. My name is Scott. I have chronic depression, and have been having a very stressful time in my life. I came back to the United States from Taiwan after my wife gave birth to our first child, only to have my good friend that hired me turn around and fire me 3 months later. This after he encourages me to buy a house here!
I've found a new job now, and I'm optimistic about it, but it has its fair share of stresses in the beginning. Also, my son has been diagnosed as being allergic to peanuts, wheat, milk, soy and eggs. This makes figuring out his food very difficult. And after today's doctor visit, it turns out we haven't been giving him enough meat and veggies, because his weight percentile has gone down quite a bit and he's borderline anemic.
All this bad luck and stress puts a big strain on my marriage. My wife is Chinese, and she doesn't always seem to have the patience to deal with my depressed self. Sometimes I feel like everything is my fault, that my very existence makes things more difficult for everyone. Tonight I tried to feed my son some new baby foods, but he threw a fit and my wife got stressed out at me and told me he was too tired to handle all the new stuff.
I don't like feeling like this. I feel like my brain gets so overwhelmed by worry that it causes me to make poor judgements, which causes even more worry. I want to be a better husband and father than this. I could really use help, but I'm still on medicaid and its hard to find a counselor that will take that.
What should I do?
