To start I don'y drink or do drugs anymore, 7years clean 11 years sober, a member of NA and I do have a support network. I know I'm a perfectionist, am a carpenter by trade and damn good, have many other skills but always scared to start new jobs for fear of failure, I guess. Fortunately saved a few dollars and internally will sit while building up the courage to start. What I usually do is I set a deadline for myself and make a comittment to the customer as to when I will start. I don't like not keeping my word so I'll start and then its ok. Got great reviews from all my work but really fear starting new jobs regardless of how many times I have done the same thing.

  I beleive 1 of the answers is to just start and I tell my sponsee to just start but I have huge problems dragging myself out of the house to start the job.

  This is insane to have work and talent and not go get the money and work while its there. Why do I even take the chance of losing the job? By the way, I am a male aged 54. I do smoke cigarettes and am about 30 pounds heavier than I wish.

  Can you give me some suggestions as to what to do to solve my problems? Am I depressed?

   Tried Welbutrin and it made me feel like I was coming off an acid trip or a 2 day run on Extasy! My head was zinged and I really felt burnt out with shaking going all over the inside of my body