Hi llmj,

There's so much you can do to help with your depression but it does mean pushing yourself to get started. One thing is clear, you don't like how you feel so you've posted to this site. It may not feel like it but that's a good start - you're reaching out.

Have you seen your doctor? You really should - now.

Also, know that what you are feeling is shared by countless others and they can support you. Check out our forum for this. I'm also a believer that knowledge gives mastery over situations. You'll find lot's of helpful and useful information about depression on this site and a place to start is with depression basics.