im sorry im not answering your question. I am 12 years old, and my dad committed suicide when i was 7. We had gone to CVS to pick up his new meds, and when we came home, BOOM! he was gone, he had driven up to his favorite police cheifs memorial ground, and shot himself, he was on the wrong pills, and thought someone was coming to murder our family, so b4 that could happen, he murdered himself first.... i know how you feel...