I am a 13 year old girl who lives with her father, mother, and brother. My parents don't get along and fight a lot and almost got divorced when I was 6 years old. My mom says I was always mature for my age (In 2nd grade I attempted to read Treasure Island by myself). I have always taken school seriously and most of the courses I take are a year or two above my peers. I am slightly overweight and have been all my life. I am extremely insecure and take it personally every time someone makes a comment. I feel like I need for people to like me, example: I was at camp and a counselor yelled at me for doing something I never even did. My friends supported my saying I really didn't do it that I was with them the whole time but she persisted. That night I cried because of it and I still think about it every day and feel guilty even though I didn't do anything. I have a lot of friends at school and they tell me I am too nice and gorgeous and I hate when they say it I hate when they make those types of comments and yell at them for doing so (in a way to not hurt their feelings). I am an overachiever and feel as if my maturity makes me feel alone. In school I find myself thinking that my peers are immature for worrying about boys and clothes so much rather than striving to reach goals. When I get home from school I lock myself in my room for most of the remaining day. I like to be alone for I feel I am the only one who can understand my situation. Often at night when I know I am alone I cry myself to sleep. I don't know why I do this and sometimes I dont even know why I am crying. I find it also unusual that I tend to want to sleep a lot (11-14 hours) some nights, and other nights I can't sleep more than 6-7 hours. In addition I have recently lost my appetite a lot for no reason and I sometimes think of death. I would never even think of suicide but I sometimes wonder which people would cry if I died. It is so scary to me because I feel something is wrong with me; my nightmares are demented, I wake up constantly in the night, I have irregular sleeping patterns, I take all comments personally, I think about death, I cry a lot, I want to be alone a lot, and I feel alone a lot because of my maturity. But, on the other hand in school I feel I put on a happy face just for the public and am happy a lot of the time but then when I am alone thinking or just in the comfort of my own home my personality changed and I think of how horrible my day went. Sorry for the long description but I want a personal, mature answer that will help me. Thank you for your time and efforts.





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