I need alot of support, i feel as if i am going back in withdrawing , back into agorophobia, i have my therapy tommrow, i am not going to have my power taken

yet i am feeling very withdrawn, stunn guns are legal here she treatened me with that too, oh why did she hurt me? sorry,i dont mean to cry, tonight i am feeling so fearful, yet like a warrior going into a b attle a spear in one hand yet tears in my  eyes shouting I have the power you dont!!!!!!!!!! i am trying to visualize power, to top it off remember the man who got his 15 min of fame claiming he killed wee jonbent ramsy? he has had a sex change and is here in seattle, oh god , and he is stalking a young girl, they cant find him it was one the news he has been staying in domestic abuse shelters to be close to the children he thinks as a woman he can take them and do what he pleases, i cant believe he is here i felt freaked out he is so much the sick personality of the woman who attacked me she too is going thru a sex change   , oh god , i am overwhelmed, there is so much violence, why ? i will never understand.

there are men going around tazing women to disable them and attack us that way, all this i saw on the news, these people are cowards , we as women give birth, nurturing, are intelligent, yet we are sought after for sick things. oh i hope i havent triggered anyone's pain or memories i am trying to be careful, i am terrified, right now in this moment i even feel afraid she may be on this site, that is a stretch perhaps, i have to go alone, pray for me , send me good vibes of strength, i am resolved to go i must see my therapist, i had to share this, these feeling in the moment. love to you all, starshine