So I wrote my whole story and it was far to long so I am going to make bullet point My husband was the best father and spouse I could ask for but a little over a year ago things started to spiral down and FAST... here are some thing that have happened

* Started abandoning the family to hang out with old High School Friends. He said it was an escape for him but then would cry (NOT a cryer) because of what he was doing to the family but said he couldn't stop himself.

* Made very irrational decisions... that he would have NEVER made before

* Would go to councelling and we would be getting on good grounds but then he would go right back into the abandoning/crying stage

*Quit his great job at a presigious University as a Grant Accountant

*Spent unreasonable amounts of money on nothing

* He doesnt do any drugs nor does he cheat when he would be out with his friends (drank some) but no longer see's them at all. In fact his best friend has not spoken to him in months.

*Then (since he has no job) has had to pawn valuable items

* Has now completly isolated himself and says the only person he talks to is me and that is at best minimul

* Is currently homeless but refuses to move back home with me because he says everything feels hopeless (his words are he see's no light in his darkness)

* Just today he didn't show up for my birthday and this was his reasoning "I dont have the heart to face you.....Im nothing....i dont have anything to give you on your b-day....it really hit me that i dont deserve anything from you not your money, time, effort, ....nothing....I had a dream.....I LOVE YOU SO MUCH....but I can't come to grips with myself. I know you forgive me I cant forgive myself. I want forgive myself and just come home....but I cant......I dont deserve to.....it haunts me every night"

If someone could give me some guidance. Divorce is not an option!! Is he Depressed? Is this normal depression behavior? Is there anything I can say/do? Thanks for reading this...