Hi, Kaliroar.  I would suggest that you find a therapist, if you don't already have one.  He/she could help you with ways to cope with this.  When I worked, I had a very hard time with criticism and would want to literally drive off a cliff.  A therapist could help you stop obsessing so much over this.  Does the doctor who prescribed the medication know about how you go over and over these incidents?  Maybe you need a medication adjustment, as well.

I hope you can find a way to manage this, I know it's not very pleasant to live with this.  I'm guessing you're already pretty hard on yourself and getting disciplined just puts you over the top.  Please let us know how you're doing or if we can be of any more help.

Kaliroar

11/17/09 12:20am

Thanks for your suggestions.  It happens so infrequently that seeing a therapist seems like a bit much, but maybe I will take that advice.  At least some ideas of how to cope when it does happen might help me out.  Also, from reading this website I came to the realization that the Gabapentin that my psychiatrist gave me for a different situation would work well in these situations too.  I think I will contact her to see if she thinks so as well.  I'm pretty much over the last incident now, and am doing okay.  Thanks for the concern.

I've delt with anger management issues now for several years. They sprouted up during high school and only got worse. I went to a therapist for a while and I found it didn't help because the advice she gave me was "count to ten".

I believe anyone with anger management problems has to develop there own safe word to keep themselves centered. The way I handle situations at work when I become frustrated (I work in customer service) is I tell myself I am overreacting to the situation, because I know I am. As I tell myself this I simply pick apart the situation in the sense that I am in the wrong, of course this self destructive kind of thought process might be looked down upon, but it works for me.

When I can see the other side of the argument I generally can get a laugh out of myself at how silly I was being for getting so worked up about something that I know I shouldn't have.

Kaliroar

11/18/09 9:00am

Thank you for the suggestion.  I am pretty good about keeping myself in check outwardly, it's just inwardly that all the negative stuff is happening.  I need a middle ground between blowing up, and actually being able to express myself in a contrallable way.  Right now I'm just keeping everything bottled up until I get a chance to make some weak remarks about doing something that would bother the person.  Not exactly a functional work relationship, but in my mind it gives me back a little bit of the power that I lost.