Hi Hope,
Well it sounds very much to me that you ARE dealing with your anxiety extremely well. Everything you say in your post points to a person who is reflective, capable and empowered. Let's unpack this:
You fully understand the mistakes of the past and you don't want to repeat them. You appreciate the positive emotions that stirred in you as a result of dating. Men clearly find you attractive. You can identify that some statements made to you are toxic, and while they make you feel bad, you see them for what they are.
It seems to me that you are on the brink of truly accepting who you are. You have certain doubts but given your history this is perfectly understandable. My advice - go for it - and good luck to you!