Lauryn, I hope you'll stay on your medication at least until you can see a psychiatrist - it might start kicking in any day. As you mentioned, you don't have these thoughts every day - can you let yourself think about the possibility of tomorrow being better? I don't remember if you've said that you have a therapist or not, but if you do, can you call him/her just to talk for a bit? Or do you have a minister or rabbi or anyone else you respect that you could talk to? The fact that you are having days when you feel better makes me think that you will have more of these days as you stay on the medication. Please hang in there and give it a chance. I'm glad you're writing here because we do care about you and want to know how you're doing. Hope to hear from you again soon.
Hi Judy Yea there r somedays that r good days but others I dont know how to get through. I will try to think of a better tomorrow when I do have those days. Today is a good day sorta. I used to have a therapist but I'm getting a psyciatrist in a couple of days or weeks. Thats what I try to think when I'm having a bad day. No I dont have anyone else I respect that I could talk to. I'm trying to give it a chance. It's nice to know that someone does care about me and I will write again soon. Thank You for helping me.
hi lauryn, starshine again, i know the pain your in, and it is hard to think of a better tommrow, but it is there, i still have ups and down, but i have a great therapist and a wonderful doctor, and a few friends so i can go do something like go to a movie,
i am going through a terrible personal time just now and its hard but therapy helps me stay afloat, lauryn, suicide is not the answer, the pain would stop but so would
you, and no one wants you to stop being the warm loving person , intelligent and bright that is lauryn, you have to take hold and just go for it for help, if your insurance will cover it you may need a psy and therapist the psycharitrist prescribes and follows your medication protocol the therapist is the one who will talk to you on and ongoing basis. you have all my support and the support of everyone here at this site, keep writing we are here, for real. starshine
I still have bad days but the real thing that is keeping me here is my boyfriend and im the one that is keeping him here too. we both suffer from depression. Its hard at times and i still think about killing myself at times but i cant because of my boyfriend. when i cant get hold of him i turn to this site. u guys help me a lot and im so thankful for that. I have thought about running away for a couple of weeks now and i dont know where i would go or what i would do. All i know is if i dont some help sometime soon that i will be planning to leave this place or going trough with ending my life. I will keep writing.
Hi, Lauryn -
A week is not long enough for most antidepressants to have their full effect, and I hope you'll give this more time. Your depression sounds pretty bad, and I know you'd like to get immediate relief. For most people, though, it can take time to find the medication that really works - I've gone through many of them before finding the ones that helped. But if you're in crisis you should immediately contact your doctor - hopefully a psychiatrist rather than a general practitioner - and ask for an emergency visit. If you feel yourself getting really frightened about suicidal thoughts, please call a suicide hotline - talk to someone!
I know it's discouraging but it's never easy to deal with severe depression, and often medications don't completely cure the problem. Other treatments - therapy, meditation, nutrition, for example - usually need to be combined with drugs. Medication can help you get stronger and closer to a decent state of mind so that you can figure out what else will be most helpful.
I'm sorry you're feeling so depressed and want you to know first that there are many on this site who've gone through this same misery - and who want to be helpful. This is a good place to come to for advice, and I hope you'll stay in touch here.
Hi I dont know if I can live like this much longer. i would like immediate relief. next thursday I'm suppose to get a call from my insurance. When i do get the call I'm going to get a psychiatrist. I have called the suicide hotline before. It did help me. It is hard to get through severe depression. The reason I write here is because I dont have a very good support system at my house. I know the people here has gone through the same thing as me and I come here for advice on what to do a lot scince i found this site. Thanks for all ur advice. I will stay in touch.
Hi. It's never a good idea to discontinue taking any medication due to withdrawal symptoms that can be very dangerous. If you're wanting to stop taking your anti-depressant, there are a few things you need to ask yourself.
1. Why do you want to quit taking it? Is it because you've been taking it for months and you feel you're cured of your depression? Many people who have been taking medications and begin to feel good again think they can stop. This is something to take up with your doctor.
2. Have you only been on this medication for a few days or a week or two and having side effects? Again, something to talk with your doctor about.
3. There's many medications to treat depression. If the one you've been taking is causing you problems, again, talk with your doctor.
Not sure how helpful I was but depression isn't something to ignore. I know, I saw what depression can do as my mother suffered from clinical depression for 13 years. At the end of her life, she wouldn't talk, didn't care about anything and sat and stared out the window. No one could get through to her that she had so much to live for with children, grandchildren and even great-grandchildren. All who loved and cared about her. We called it, "Slow Suicide" and believe me, it was so sad to stand back and watch my mother decline and I couldn't do anything about it.
I wish you all the best as you search for solutions
I have been taking it for a week and one day. I want to stop taking it because yester day I was depressed and today I want to kill myself. I cant stop thinking about it. thats why cause wether I'm taking the antidepressant or not I still want to kill myself. I'm sry about ur mom and yes it is sad to stand back and watch. It's even worse if ur the one going through it cause somedays u feel ok and others all u do is cry all day and dont get out of bed. U just cry. I have had many many days like that the only reason I do get up is to take my meds and I dont want to take them any more. Thanks for answering my question.
Lauryn, call your doctor. It often takes up to 6 weeks for an antidepressant to work, and many times you may have to try more than one to find the right one that works for you. Meanwhile, if you are suicidal, you need to be admitted to a psychiatric facility for a few days. Don't let yourself be alone. If your boyfriend's not with you, then go to your mother's. Or to the public library. Don't take any chances that you might harm yourself when you are alone and feeling your worst. And hospitals are nothing to be afraid of -- I have been hospitalized several times and it was the best thing that could have happened when I was suicidal.
Wishing you the best,
My mom won't let me be admitted to the hospitle. I have asked her to let me go but She wont let me. I dont have my lience so I cant drive myself. I dont know how to make the thoughts stop. They did stop for about 4 days then I got really depressed then the next day all I wanted to do was die and the same today. My mom works and my brother goes to school and all I want is to be alone when I'm suicidal. If my mom is home I stay in my room or go riding on my forewheeler. If shes at work I'm out of my room. I dont leave the house much mabey 2 or 3 times a week. most of the time im alone. I wish I could get hospitalized. I have a really hard situation and every solution I come to goes to shit (everytime). Right now I'm all out of ideas. I wish myself the best.
dear lauryn ,
please call your doctor tell them over the phone you feel suicidal you can get help,
if you can take a bus to any hospital and go to the emergency room and tell them they will help you, i know what yur going through, believe me , believe me.
and lauryn it can take 6-8 weeks for an antidepressant to work , you will feel ok then not ok, but please go to a librry and call your neares hopital and tell them that you need help, they can get to you and take you to the hospital.they may have a psy unit if not they will tranfer you to one, your mom has nothing to do with this , this is your life, save it. i have every faith that you can do this, you can do this lauryn be strong make the calls your mom cannot stop you from getting help. peace be with you, starshine
hi starshine Thank you for that advice i will do that. I know my boyfriend will be mad if i do it but i need the help so bad cause i dont know how much longer i can live in this pain. no one i live with knows what im going through. because of my boyfriend its easier to hide the depression all have to do is think about him to hide. my mom doesnt even notice any more that im still in pain. she asked me if i was still taking my pills and i said yes because i still am. Thank you again for that advice. I will definitly try that. I will keep writing.
I just read your story. I do not know if you belive in God or not.
but, if you do. Pray, Pray, pray. i have had depression/anxiety since
i was 13. I know what it feels like to want to die and always feel unhappy,
i have gone thru some tough times, better now that i am on an antidepresant.
i managed to get married, have two wonderful children (both adults now)
and stay sane. All of this i am sure because of praying to God. I do not know
what i would do if i could not pray. When all else fails try God. I pray and talk
to my Jesus daily. I ask him for restoral of my emotional well being. I know for
a fact that Jesus is there to help all of us. God has so much love and mercy for
all of us. Please if you are a christian , try to talk to God and ask him for help.
In the end there is no one else that can help. of course see your doctor. God
works thru them also..May God Bless you, and keep you alive and in peace.
your sister in Christ....gloria Galvan