Hello all. I am a 21 year old and my boyfriend is 20. We've been going out for a year and a half and has about a month ago now, been diagnosed with depression. We had quite a very rocky relationship when we established that it could've been the depression that was making him this way. I can't stop being angry at the person the depression makes him but it comes out like I'm angry at him. We had one of our biggest arguments the other night. It all started on the way home from his cousin's engagement party. He had gotten us lost, I asked a question twice to his younger brother and cousin in the back of the car, to which he snapped that I was a "repetitive c---". It really hurt. I started crying and he said "oh crying AGAIN?". I can't help it, (and I have looked at websites about how to support someone with depression) but I can never hold my tongue and always come out with things like "oh take another pill". I know it really doesn't help, but I'm finding it hard to separate his depression from him, and constantly it feels like he treats everyone else nicely and me like crap. I can't help but feel it's all an excuse to screw me over? I just can't deal with it. This will have been the 6th time he's broken up with me. I don't even understand, from Friday-Sunday (up until the argument) everything was perfect. We were so loved up and all of a sudden as of yesterday evening, he doesn't want to and can't be with me. I don't understand how his emotions can switch so quickly. He even said he still loves me, but it's for the best that we part and remain friends. I'm going to see a counsellor about it as soon as possible. However, I can't tell if this time he's serious considering the countless times he's ended up breaking up with me and asking me back out previously. I don't know what to do anymore :(. He has major issues of trust with me, and is the kind of person who holds onto and everything said during an argument, and it scares me that I may have to walk on eggshells around him. I just can't get my head around the fact that he feels this way after one argument? I even asked if it was a possibility for both of us to try and overcome our issues, and then if that transpires to work - to try again. But he was insistent that "too much has happened" for us to ever get back together. I should be used to the feeling by now, but it is tearing me apart. I miss who he used to be so much. It doesn't help that everyone tells me I deserve better and that I should just dump him and move on. I don't want to, I don't want to 'save' him and since we've separated we've been on speaking terms as friends, even if he shows reluctancy. It's breaking my heart seeing him like this, and it makes me so determined to be the stronger person that he needs to support him. The worst thing is that I know deep down he does love me, I have no doubt about it. I think I've blown it this time. I want to be there to support him but it makes me so angry and I find it so hard to control. Oh, and I'm pretty sure his parents are beyond peed off with me now after said argument, which really doesn't help. Please help! :(