I cannot get any help I do not live within a city, which im greatful for, I dont have insurance and I dont have a job. I cannot get foodtamps or any type of help from the state becuase I dont have a job, in the state of florida you dont qualify for any type of assistance unless you work for some reason.

Last year I had to move back from TN, after a 6 year relationship I thought was going fine, after we lost our house in TN, she was suppose to move back with me by her words, I honestly never thought she would move becuase i had asked her so many times while we were stuggling in TN to move back to florida with me becuase I had my law enforcement certifications here still, but she refused, so when we lost out place to live in TN i had already resorted myself to us breaking up due to this fact, and I knew I was going to move back alone, but when I told her I knew this and to go ahead and make arrangements to move to her fathers house or whatever she was going to do , she stoped me dead in my tracks and said, "No, you gave up everything to move up here and be with me, I want to move back to florida with you"

Of course I was completely shocked and speechless, becuase I had asked her so many times over the years, and given up so much to keep our familys together, my daughter whom i had custody of, and her and her sons.

After typing just this I see this story would end up being a book so I will cut it short, basicly we didnt have the pefect relationship by any means, we fought a lot over finacial stuff becuase when i moved to her state  first off she was totally screwed up becuase of a ex - husband she had that was a stalker and the local law enforcement I thought wouldnt do anything about it, of course now after seeing how she I wonder if maybe he hadnt been telling the truth when he said she kept inviting him back into her life, either way he vandalized my vehicle until to the point my insurance dropped me right after i moved up there, she was so messed up in the head ( I didnt realize it then) that she wasnt herself, her sweet kind nature I thought i saw was all a cover for what was really going on behind the scenes, she was abusive to me the first year it took me a year to get her to stop hitting me when we had a argument, I never had hit her or any other women in my life and never would have, but after a year of her hitting me and having to hold her down to make her stop and keep from being hit, she finally quit for some reason, and we just argued after that, although she got super nasty, I mean super nasty, I have worked in a state maxium security prison for 10 years in florida from the time I was 19 to 29 and I have been verbally abused before but none of them held a candle to her.

 Here I go rambling again, basicly i had to move back , when i got everything back in my florida home that at the same time all this was happening my ex wife whom I thought i could trust as well, and allowed her to live in my home on my mothers land,  she left my house in forclosure the same exact month we began losing our house in TN. I spent all my money to save my house in Florida, and move "US" back, once I got here , she went home that weekend to her fathers like we had planned to get more of her things and never came back, she called several times, once before my birthday and swore she was comming down to see me, and she had decided to keep the  12k a year crap job she had in TN being a teacher aid,  BTW I put her through 6 years of college when we were together she had graduated her BS in education and almost had her masters when I moved back, she didnt have to work the whole time  and I found out about 6 months later that she was married like 3 months after I moved back. No she never told me, she never broke up with me, she kept promising to come down and see me , Thanksgiving, said she was comming, gave me a date and a time, never showed up never called till a few weeks after , Chrsitmas same thing, she was going to come, didnt hear from her until a few days before new years eve, where she said she was comming for sure, that things up there were hectic and she had decided to spend the holidays with her family she claimed she couldnt stand being around, go figure.

after new years and of course her not showing up, I didnt hear from her until late april where she wanted to come down and get some clothes of hers she had left , all casual like we had discussed it in the past or somthing.

Anyhow after all this termoil from this psyco, and finally letting her go mentally deciding i didnt need someone that untrrustworthy in my life, it took me atleast the first year till around july to stop thinking about her everyday and crying all the time I thought I was getting past it and had it beat, but it all came crashing back in not long ago, I am still without a job, I live about a hour and a half away from the nearest city, there is a msall city here I tried getting on with the local law Enforcement, I have been pretty much inside my house for the last year and a half , becuase I dont work , cant afford to go anywhere, soon as I moved back my trucks tag expired and I havent had the money to pay the 250 dollars for a new florida tag which I have to buy, I had to let my insurance lapse becuase I couldnt pay for it, my Law Enforcement certifications for florida expired the month i moved back , I am a full time student still trying to finish my BS degree on student loans and pell grants which im only a few months away from being done with , which will open up Job opertunities I need that I can get around here, and I am about to lose my home.

The only joy I have in my life and the only thing that has kept me from doing anything stupid I can honestly say is my dogs, that I breed and are my family, other then them and my mother, I have no family, my mother is disabled and poor as I am becuase of it.

During that 7 months not knowing what was going on with me and her, and living up there for almost 6 years, I was already in a bad depression becuase I was out of work in TN for so long becuase the little town of Lawrenceburg has a good ole boy system, if your not from there they will not hire you!

I was told this after 2 years of trying to get on with a crappy little minimum wage city police force, the lady at job services for the state told me I would never get a job in that area unless im related to someone or have a close friend inside.  It took me a year of stopping by a Gamestop store and getting to know the people and trying to befriend them to get a job finally there, and got a assitant managers postion. I had tyo quit this job BTW when I moved back becuase they had no opening in this area and the closest was 2 hours away.

My life has basicly turned bad, I Have been living off of sandwitches, and stuff the local grociery store bascily throws away becuase it goes out of date that day, im thankful that it really lasts several days later.  When im lucky and around times i get my school loans, I Manage to buy hotdogs and bread which are like heaven when I can have a nice hot meal, as it stands now I live off of what most people spend in a day and I eat things other would call starving in order to have a meal.  I recently lost a buch of my puppies becuase some moron whom wrote me a bad check making my life worse for a puppy, ( I breed my dogs, they have saved me from losing my house and also fed me many many times over the last year and a half)  and when the check bounced and then they didnt follow the rules of the contract to take the puppy to the vet for his shots, and also refused to boot to pick up the bad check and pay the fees, I was charged by my bank, I took my dogs back, which I can do via my contract everyone signs, well she had recently had a dog die of parvo, which I specificly asked before i let my dogs go, she lied to me , and one of the puppies I allowed her and her roomate to buy, came down with parvo becuase they had not given the dog his follow up shots like I required and he died , and spread it through out my pack killing all my litters, and 11 of my personal family member dogs.  I basicly lost all small puppies I had , even some of my older dogs got sick, but I keep them up on shots so I didnt lose but one of them and it was only becuase she was pregenant, now I have it in my rug, I cant afford to remove the rug from my house, I cant afford a professional clean to kill the virus in my rug, I cant afford to even rent one to do it myself, and I am losing my newborns now from it still 4 months later, and I am about to lose my house becuase I am 2 months behind on my mortgage, I only have 3 classes left, about 16 weeks of college before I graduate, and I cant seem to hold it together anymore, the vet that helped me with my dogs when I had parvo, went and broke our agreement and my trust , I left her a few checks that she was suppose to cash for 50 dollars a month until I got a job or graduated, and she went and wrote one out for 300 dolalrs lsat week which took every bit of money I had to live off of for the next 3 months, that would have paid for a month of food and my lightbill , now I dont know what I am going to do,  I called her and she basicly didnt care, she is a rich prick who took my trust and screwed me over for a few hundred dollars which is nothing to her, but everything to me right now.  

This is only a small portion of things that have contributed to my problems and condition now over the lasr 3 years of my life, I also have bveen divorced, through a custody battle to take my at the time 14 year old daughter away from my ex wife becuase she was allowing her to skip school, failing her 3 years in a row, use drugs, sleep with her mothers boyfriends, and the list goes on and on.  I had to move her to TN with me after I had moved up there, and fought a court case without a lawyer from in TN , to get custody of her which I won, and when my daughter almost had turned 18 the year before having to move back to florida, she went crazy began acting out, lying, running away from home, ect ect having sex with boys in her high school, just totally out of control. I Have all of this crpa going on in my life all over the same time period.