How do I tell my loved one about my depression without them thinking im just complaining?

Because he will blame himself for stressing me out. We moved out here for his business, he knows that has been hard... then the loss of my animals in this death trap that is my new home. And the money.... hes not blind, he will see these things and think he has caused me to be this way. Which is far from the truth. admitably things got worse with the stress, but certainly not the cause.

very well...

 I moved from a city I grew up in to the middle of nowhere to run a truck stop. I am normally a dog groomer, i can be kept fairly hapy as long as I can work with animals. Now im working in a truck stop dealing with filthy people with nothing good to say.... uhm...positive side.... guess im near nature... course even if i had time to enjoy it there are too many predators in the area to really appreciate the nature.... this is what happened to my animals. The cat wasnt even supposed to be outside but people kept letting her out. dog was on a leash.... Not safe to bring other animals here. Its incredibly lonely as I have a real hard time relating to those few who are near. Can not leave often as I had to sell my car and the truck is needed for work. Still, thats just the things that have helped make it harder to see the bright side of things. I started to feel this way before... just difficult to maintain any sense of self worth. The talents I do have are of no use here.

So you gave up happiness to be unhappy?

What is it that stops you from seeking your happiness?

I gave up a growing janitorial business to move out of state with my wife so she would be happy. I have never been happy here and neither is she. It was a complete waste of happiness. Now I live with this everyday knowing I couldve gone and searched for what would make me happy. 

I gave up happiness to keep another happy without losing them.

The only way I could resume work with animals would be to leave here and go continue my education, best place to do so would be the province over. But to do that would mean leaving my bf. As he could not leave here both because his family is here, and he would go bankrupt. I could leave on my own, but I will not because he is the most important part of my life. Leaving him would not mean being happy either.

Are there any local animal places that you can talk to about some options maybe?

Is there any thing you can do online to help you out?

the last thing you want to do is to hide your feelings behind prescription medications.

Can you get counseling/therapy?

i live in the midde of nowhere, there are no local placs. Online its easier to be myself an make friends which helps the lonely feeling... but It also means I dont get out and my antisocial behavious around here is one of the problems. As for counseling... im not sure... first im going to have to find a way of admitting it to another... as I can not go anywhere alone with the lack of vehicle.... middle of nowhere makes a lot of things difficult

I am very sad to hear how trapped you are. As I am sure that you love your BF, it would hurt me to know that I was holding my wife back from doing something she needs to do to be happier. If she was unhappy I wouldnt think that she is complaining by talking to me about what's making her unhappy(since usually it's me). There are many different ways to communicate with people. I just cant understand why he would think you are complaining if you're just asking for a way to be happier. 

your probably right there... still