Hello, this is my first post on the site and I don't really know what to expect.  I am a 19 year old male who has been suffering from depression and anxiety problems for as long as I can remember, but were officially diagnosed by a psychologist when I was 17.  I was prescribed Lexapro and was started on the normal low dose and that slowly rose.  After failing my first year of college and not returning home due to personal problems, my parents have cut me off financially.  I am now currently unemployed with no insurance, with a work history that seems to be as good as non existent so I don't know when that will change.  When I was left to fend for myself financially I was taking 20mg of Lexapro a day, and I was still in need of a higher dose and much more counseling.  I currently reside in an apartment with my girlfriend where we live off of 150$ a week on average.  This leaves me with no money for treatment that I desperately need.  I have plenty of days where I can function, but I tend to still have depressive days at least once a week if not more in which I find it hard to accomplish the simplest of tasks and tend to cry countless times throughout the day.  I also suffer from insomnia because of this and tend to spend multiple days a month receiving 2-3 hours of sleep if sleep is even accomplished which sometimes it is not.  I also am prone to suicidal thoughts, which I do not intend to act on ever, but never the less are very upsetting. I desperately desire treatment but simply cannot afford it and don't know what to do.  I want to become a functioning member of society and am tired of that thought seeming like a pipe dream.  If anyone has any ideas as to how I should proceed they would be greatly appreciated, and I thank anyone who took the time to read this post.