I sent love and light to you in my mind... Hope you can feel it. I have MS, too, and I once studied in a nursing school, so I feel some kind of connection with you.. This time, it is the fifth attack already I think, and I just turned 30. Recently I have been trying to ignore the physical discomfort and trying hard to change my thinking system, my inside.  I had been too negative.   I never knew I had to learn to love myself before loving others.  These few days, I have been doing a practice: Everytime I breathe the air in, I imagine Love and Light of the whole universe coming in the top of my head to my belly, and as I breathe out the air, I imagine them expanding to the every part of my body.  I feel Love this way.  Hope this can help you, too, Michelle! Please never give up hope.  Things will be settled just right when the time comes... I believe.