at least someone is being honest  noone who has ever had to experience the pain of dealing with depression has no freakin clue what a day to day sruggle it is i have to wake up again.same routine you feel useless,waste of space,and a shell of someone that used to be there.   but do you know how hurt those you leave behind would be thats what keeps me semi-functioning.  if it was reversed i could imagine his pain and my sons pain,even though yours seems soooo much more overwhelming and important.im in the same boat.i feel like all i am is a burden to my husband.he has to get tired of the crying ,mood swings,and unfunctional me. but hes here and hes not going anywhere and either will yours im just starting help this week so im gonna try and look at it as an adventure even if i feel like sh*t.  but hang in there theres gotta be that light somewhere out there