I HAVE BEEN TAKING XANAX FOR EIGHT YEARS KNOW. I STARTED OFF BY TAKING TWO PILLS ONLY ON THE WEEKENDS TO GET HIGH, THEN I STARTED TAKING TWO EVERY DAY, EVENTUALLY I UMPED MY DOSE TO THREE AND A HALF OF THE 2 MG GENERIC XANAX'S EVERY DAY...BUT THEN I STARTED THINKING ABOUT MY FUTURE AND HOW I WOULD EVER COME OFF OF IT, FOR EXAMPLE LIKE IF I WANTED TO GET PREGNANT.  I DECIDED TO COME OFF IT "COLD TURKEY" IT HAS BEEN THREE WEEKS ALREADY AND I HAVE TO BE HONEST.  I FEEL LIKE I AM GOING TO DIE. I WOULD RELAPSE AND GET BACK ON IT BUT... I CANNOT GET IT FROM ANYONE, THE PERSON I USED TO BUY IT OFF DOES NOT GET IT ANYMORE, THEREFORE I AM IN DANGER. MY HEART DOES NOT STOPPED POUNDING REALLY FAST, I CONSTANTLY HAVE SWEATY HANDS AND FEET, I FEEL SHAKY INSIDE, I HAVE TO URINATE CONSTANTLY, I FEEL SEVERLY DEPRESSED, I GET LIKE TWO HRS. OF SLEEP EVERY NIGHT, I CAN'T CONSENTRATE, AND I AM VERY IRRITABLE.  I AM ABOUT TO GO SEE THE DOCTOR TOMMOROW AND TELL THE WHOLE TRUTH I THOUGHT I CAN COME OFF THIS ALONE BUT I PYSICALLY CAN'T!!  MY BODY IS NOT LETTING ME AND ALL I THINK ABOUT IS HOW DO GET XANAX!!  I DON'T KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO ME BUT I KNOW THAT I CAN'T GO ON LIKE THIS.. IF I KNEW THIS IS HOW I WOULD FEEL THAN I WOULD NEVER TRY XANAX IN THE FIRST PLACE!!  MY LIFE HAS CHANGED I AM NOT THE SAME PERSON, I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM???