Hi -

If you're depressed, feel suicidal, have your girlfriend telling you to deal with your anger or she's gone, and feel overwhelmed, the first thing you should do is get treatment for yourself. Obsessive, even paranoid thinking is part of depression for some people - so focusing on what she's doing while away from you or what this other guy is trying to do to you could be part of the distorted thinking that goes with depression. The point is: those ideas are drawing your attention away from your own issues - that's often a way of avoiding them and trying to find someone else who's the cause of your anguish. I'm saying this out of concern that you deal right away with what you're describing as suicidal depression.

Please consult a therapist or psychiatrist to have this checked out by someone not in the midst of this exhausting emotional storm and who can give you an objective view of what you're experiencing.

John