Pump Holiday

Hey everyone!

I feel sort of guilty admitting this, but, a few weeks ago I started wondering how it would feel to not be on the pump. I love my pump. Really, I do! But...I just had this strange and sudden desire to be "free"! I feel guilty because for so long I have advocated pumping to everyone. I talked about how wonderful pumps are, how it is the only way to manage diabetes and blah blah blah. I never imagined myself wanting to take a break.

Doctors have, in the past, told me about "pump holidays," and they offered to let me try a week without the pump during the summer, if I wanted. I was told that a lot of other teens did it. But I always shunned the idea! Now here I am using insulin pens, adhering to a stricter schedule of dosing and living without temporary rates, extended boluses and constant beeps. And I'm lovin' it.

When I started this little experiment, about two weeks ago, I promised that I would go back on the pump. I said that this would only be for a little while just to see what it was like to not have something attached to me 24/7 - just temporary. Now I am worried that I may not be able to go back to my pump!!!! Help!!!!

I can wear whatever I want now - strapless dresses, high-waisted skirts, sweats without pockets. No problem! No worries about where to wear the pump. When I go running, I do not have to leave my pump in the car where the insulin might overheat. My pump is safe at home, turned off and the insulin is in my body! It's great. Also, I have had basically no lows. The long-acting insulin I'm using, which serves as a basal rate, keeps my blood sugars sooo steady. It's called levemir. Also, I think that the new regimen is making me lose weight

I know that this can't last forever, but I am wondering just how long I should keep it up. Going all summer might make it too hard to get back in control with the pump when school starts, and that would be such a hassle at the beginning of the school year, especially with cross country. Maybe cross country would be easier if I was on shots, but I am scared because I have never had a season without the pump. It seems like I might get "stuck" doing injections and then it will be so hard to go back. 

As soon as I figure this out, I'll let you know! Meanwhile, I still am in favor of the pump and I highly recommend it!!!