Oh bosom friend, we have finally met! Haha, I'm just kidding ;) But WOW, I know just what your going through Kristie! I was diagnosed with diabetes when I was nine and I'm fifteen now, so I am probably a little younger than you. Well the first few years of having diabetes went pretty well but somehow, somewhere, I started the downhill slide to where I am now, which is an A1C of 11...I don't have a pump but I'm using the pen. Like you, I really do hate having diabetes and sometimes feel like I just haven't excepted that its a part of my life now... :\ I, too, stopped really caring about it and taking care of it, I, too just love food too much. I do have high blood sugars all the time but I really am scared of what they will reap in the future. :( So, really, I don't have any advice for you becasue I myself am trying to get things sorted out, but I just wanted to know I feel exactly the same way and we should talk about stuff sometime! Maybe we can help each other... :) TTYL! Becca