Kristie,
Thanks for writing. It sounds like a lot of things are going on in your life with diabetes right now and when you're ready to start making really good choices for yourself, you will. It won't be easy---but it will be worth it.
Diabulimia is not an option to lose weight. What is the point of being thin if your kidneys are failing and you're damaging your vision?
And there are a lot of healthy things to do to lose weight --but it's not going to be a rapid weightloss, it's going to be gradual and steady. THe idea is to adapt healthy habits into your life that you plan to continue as best you can for the rest of your life -- instead of trying to find a temporary quick fix. Right?
To get started, could you check out a few of these posts?
Is Diabulimia really that bad for me?
Other teens who have struggled with their diabetes
What am I supposed to eat?
Getting back into control
Carbohydrate Quizzes
Kristie, it's going to be challenging to change the way you manage your diabetes, but if you care about your life, about your body and your family, you'll be willing to do the hard work and help yourself see diabetes as something that could motivate you to take really great care of yourself!
And you're not alone! Check out some of those posts, and please, leave a sharepost and let us know how you're doing and what we can do for you to help you.
Ginger