Diabetes Is A Full Time Job of Carb Counting and Insulin Checking
Diabetes is a 24/7 job.
No vacations. No lunch breaks or sick days. If you stop taking care of it, you basically... well... you just can't stop. Diabetes requires your attention all the time. When you're eating a meal, you're quietly counting the carbs you're consuming, calculating how much insulin you need and (maybe if you stare at nutrition labels too long like I do) trying to quiz yourself on just how many grams of fat and protein and calcium and sodium and cholesterol and...(the list goes on and on).
When you're at the gym, you're wondering if your blood sugar is high or low, dropping or rising. When you're sitting in class, you're wondering if you've got a juice box in your bag -- because you just went to the gym and hopefully the post-exercise effect won't take too much of a toll on your body because you tried to calculate the carbs you need to get through class until you have a chance to get lunch and...and....ahhh, I'm out of breath just thinking about it.
Diabetes is a full-time job, and you really deserve to give yourself a lot of credit for just hanging in there.
You hang in there through all the unexplainable highs and unpredictable lows, through the mashed potatoes that sent your glucose through the roof even though you took seven units of insulin, through all the finger ******. You literally can't even go to sleep safely without giving your diabetes a thought or two as your head hits the pillow.
It's frustrating sometimes, when your blood sugar is high and you feel like you're doing everything right. It's frustrating that you always have to eat before going for a run or you always have to stop and check your blood sugar or take insulin before a meal.
It's frustrating that you will never again be able to eat a bowl of ice cream without thinking, There's about 35 grams of a carbs in a half cup and I've got almost a cup so I need to take about 7 units of insulin...and I'll just ignore the fact that I'm diabetic so according to every stereotype and textbook, I should never ever eat ice cream.
(By the way, I think a bowl of ice cream now and then is TOTALLY allowed...just count your carbs!)
So, during those days where you're just frustrated and tired and confused by the obnoxious highs or light-headed lows, take care of it and give yourself a big pat on the back because diabetes is a lot of work. Fortunately, I've found that the more work and effort I seem to put into it, the less frustrating it is... because my blood sugars are more stable!
It's a lot of work for everyone. I don't know anyone who says diabetes is easy. And I certainly don't know anyone gets it right all the time.