I'm Drowning

gina,  you are such a strong person.  i know that you can do it.  take a deep breath and tell yourself, ok, vacation over and just start over again.   one day, one hour, one moment at a time.  remember, don't beat yourself up.  you aren't alone.  we're all here cheering you on.

Gina, it's perfectly normal to feel depressed after getting laid off, but you have to pick yourself up and start again.  Use your contacts and recruiters to start reaching out.  With being lazy about bolus and corrections, of course your A1C won't be as good, direct result here.  But you can go back to being careful, and see your A1C come back to better, lower  numbers.  With your CGM you have a tool for (almost) instant feedback for mistakes.  For example last night I had sushi for dinner, but decided to splurge with desert and missed by about 30 grams of carb. Oh well, if I ever get fried ice-cream again I'll know I have to double the carbs for regular ice-cream.

Hang in there Gina!  It is our strength and ability to persevere, which comes from living with diabetes, that makes us unstoppable.  One small step at a time.

Gina,

I think the other comments are very much on target and I second most of what I read up there.  The reason I wanted to respond is to say how proud I am of how far you have come.  You have a good clear view of where you are, what you need to work on and what has come undone and you are reaching out as soon as you need help.  You can, I believe, do anything.  That said, none of us can do everything alone and it is a tough balance to find.  I am proud of you for doing what you need to do to care for yourself. 

It'll take a little while but when you are back on top of things, I hope you can come back to this post, read it with fresh eyes and say "hey, check me out - I'm getting better!"

Until again...

Cheers!

A-D

I know what that feels like.  Diabetes is such a long committment. I am a freelancer nd when  projects get slow, I find its a great time to focus on better diabetes care.  I find that I can test more often, get more exercise and  manage my meals better.  It also distracts me from being depressed about the slow down in assignments. Anya   

Hey Gina, I have to say I know where you're at,  I too have lost jobs, due to being sick, I have type 1 and have had for 30 years I'm 36, I also have gastroparisis which means all the nerves in my stomach are damaged, I have a stomach pacemaker to help stimulate the nerves in my stomach so that I can eat, i'm nauseated, and I throw up every day, none of the meds I take help me anymore, but you have to stay strong and take it day by day, by the way my last a1c was 11.9 yikes!!!