Less than 24 hours...

I recently found out I have diabetes in the last 24 hours and I am falling apart. I am in disbelief and scared and confused. It seems like so much information that all I can do is cry right now. I can't believe it would hapen to me, i recently gained weight and finally got back into working out and went ot the doctor to get a check up. Even though I started working out and ecxited about the 30 pounds I have lost I got this huge blow about being diabetic. I was told my A1C was 12. What makes it worse is i feel like this is a death sentence, I am about to get married and graduate college and I get this devistating blow. I am 25 years old. I can't even see a point of going on. I know people say they have been able to get off medication/insulin and control their diabetes, I want that so bad. I don't want this life sentence. I am so depressed. Everything seems so hard, I am scared to make a mistake, I wonder if i need to worry about losing my feet, and everything else. There seems like nothing positive. I need help, despriately. I hadn't felt sick, I actually felt better lately since I have been excercising. I feel like why me, why now, I am just about to start my life na dI can't even find the stength to get out af bed.

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