I agree that trying to be "perfect" in eating, exercising, etc to control my Diabetes is like having a money on you back! I see so many people who are much more overweight than me and they do not have this horrible disease to contend with. Of course someday they may face this challenge if they continue to live their lives like I see them do. I do believe that Type 2 is at least partly genetic in nature since some people go through life obese yet eating to their hearts content without having this burden.
Yes, it is a burden and you cannot be "perfect" 24-7 all the time. My physician (who is thin & says she has not ever been overweight) chastise me when she asks me how diet compliant I am and I respond probably 80-90% of the time. She has note experienced eating a low carbohydrate low calorie diet every day yet not lose any weight! Once you have DM and are overweight your body requires so much insulin that it makes it very difficult to lose even a small amount of weight.
For this reason I will soon have a lapbanding procedure as recommended by my NEW understanding physician. I never knew how important it was for your primary physician to understand the genetic factors and difficulty we have once we have hyper-insulin levels (either via our pancreas or injections). My new physician reads the latest developments in discovering the why and how of this disease and sincerely promotes teamwork with her patients like me.
I know that the lap band is the a silver bullet and only a tool to help me make wise food choices and not overeat. I finally understand that weight loss is not to wear a smaller size and look better, but a conscious choice I have made to hopefully decrease my medications, be healthier, and life longer.
For this reason I am soon to have lapbanding
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I know that lap banding itself is only a tool to help me accomplish my goals. This is now NOT about looking better or wearing a smaller size, but is to lose weight, reduce my medications, and hopefully live a longer life!
I now realize that having a physician who keeps up to date on the latest developments regarding DM and obesity is very important. I now feel like I have a partner in this journey and not so isolated and persecuted.
My thoughts and prayers will be with you as you undergo the procedure. Sometimes we need a drastic intervention to break a cycle we are trapped in. In my case, my doctor put me on a daily injection of Lantus immediatly after my diagnosis to get me healthy enough in the short term to start exercising. Once I felt good enough to start making the needed changes, I was able to get off of the meds. Best of luck!
I feel the same as your article goes. Trying to be prefect with the exercise and diet it gets old. However, you do feel better. I do have problems staying away from favorite foods; pizza, pasta, italian bread, etc. When I break down I pay the price the day after. I can only take one day at a time and hope my will power does not break to often.
Joe Szczyradlowski
I have had Type II for 10 years. It is a daily battle that I am just now really beginning to understand how to live & enjoy food. I wish I had listened when first diagnosed how much exercise plays a part. It does very much. Eating healthy is a portion. It all dovetails together. Persistance pays off in how well we feel. I know that to be true.
Thank you for a great article!
Mary 
I'm also a type 2 and the holidays have gain back half the 40 pounds lost. My A1c have always been under 7%. I just recently taken my 3 month A1c and up to 7.5% and got so down. Because like you just miss the good sweets, and breads in life. I've gotten up and start back walking in the park up to 2 miles and recently join Weight Watchers. I lost about 5 pounds. My weight goes up and down. I just want to get it off and keep it off. I know can get off the meds if I just loose 40 pounds. So I know the feeling, but your story is very encouraging and thanks for being honesty with your true feeling. You have given me the extra push, because my goal is to be med free and getting A1c back under 6%.
What a great post! We can all relate to this! You have accomplished a great deal in a relatively short time and it has paid off big time!
You're a wonderful & inspiring writer as well. Thanks for sharing.
Thank you for your kind words!