Quieting those Nagging Doubts
I’ve written before about how my major goal for diabetes management post pregnancies was to have it impact my life as little as possible. To that end, eating a low carbohydrate diet (Paleo, specifically) has been a great success. By giving myself such small doses of insulin to cover my low-carb meals my blood sugars are amazingly stable. This is great for my physical health but the mental relief was a surprising bonus.
It’s wonderful not having to worry about what my blood sugar is doing between meals. Those nagging doubts: “Did that really have 45 grams of carbohydrates in it? Did I overbolus for that meal? Did that dressing have more sugar that I accounted for? Did I underbolus? Is my blood sugar dropping? Do I need a little snack before this meeting?” are mercifully quiet when eating meals with little carbohydrate and therefore taking small doses of fast acting insulin.
When people discuss the emotional and mental toll that diabetes takes on a person, this constant guessing, doubting, questioning that goes on day in and day out is a big part of the struggle. Not getting to eat “whatever I want” is a small price to pay for quieting (if not silencing) that inner, nagging voice. It’s a great change when I realized that while on the sugar detox, I would test my blood to confirm what I already suspected my blood sugar to be. There wasn’t any doubt that it would be in range during most of my blood sugar checks because I hadn’t done anything to bump it out of range.
After nearly two months of eating a low-carbohydrate diet, the best side effect has been not constantly thinking about my blood sugars (while maintaining good control). I’ve even gone a few hours between blood glucose checks only to find I’m right where I should be.
There you go diabetes, to the back of my mind, where you should be.