However, diabetics need to have control, right? That's what we call good diabetes management: being "in control." My ability to effectively manage my blood sugars (especially to the extent required by pregnancy) feeds that part of me that needs to have control. So the question is, what came first, diabetes or the need to control? I guess at this point in my life, it doesn't really matter. Now, I need to learn how to lessen my dependence on the illusion of control.
When it comes to diabetes, being "in control" is still very important. But, I need to come to terms with the fact that most other areas of my life can't be controlled the way my disease is, particularly when it comes to raising children. I really don't want to be a micromanaging mother. I want to be relaxed and have fun with my family, rather than always worrying about what needs to get done or what's happening next. That brings up the whole idea of living in the moment, which for a "controller" like me, is a challenge.
But that's another post entirely...
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