ugh! again! another day! life is not a breeze2

i dont care, who made that machine they lie! when they say its a breeze, and they lied when they said it takes less blood, all lies. big fat lies! mind you. i just now found out i have diabetes, @ age 30, i should be out having the time of my life, parting carring on. ETC. but im not. before i was 30 i could eat, drink and do as i wanted, when i wanted, how i wanted, i wanted to make a change, not only for my self for my kids, i didnt want them to grow up. and be heavy. i wanted them to be healthly. be happy. and lead a normal happy life, i knew if i was eatting bad they was to. i didnt want that. not for my kids, i wanted a much happier nontroubled life. i enrolled in april in a weight loss program at u.t. medical. in knoxville tn. when i first met with my PA. the first thing i had to do was watch my diet, eat 3 times a day. protein, first everything else after. i did this. first month i lost 13lbs. i was amazed, i didnt cut sugar out of my diet but i wasnt doing sweetener. if i drank diet soda i became ill. i didnt like that. after a month on the diet, cutting out breads, carbs, ETC. pototos, and cakes, and cookies, i began to feel much better. i started eatting fruits and veggies, hamburgers, prepattied, in the freezer section per ground beef, and chicken, this is my diet today, along with protein shakes, meal bars, and fiberone bars, and cerel. this is what i eat on a daily bases, most of my diet, is protein. the other 10% is fiber, and fruits and veggies, i no longer drink soda of any kind, this is what lead my body and blood sugar in to shock, is that one coke i drank. while waiting with my kids in a doctors office, i was unable to get TEA! which i sub. for that COKE. i started to carry about water bottles after things started tasting very weird, figuring there was nothing wrong with me. i just was craving water. i was wrong again. this was my body telling me i needed to check my blood sugar, when i went in last month to see my pa. i needed my normal lab work done for this surgery, i didnt have much longer, time was ticking, closing in! i needed to get it done. i fasted, that day went to my doctors office where i really slamed them. tested them hard. they had never heard of some of these panels, that this doctor needed or wanted, so they had to check what they needed to do. so we did them took over an hour to get it all drew, and packed and sent off. 3 weeks went by nothing. not even a phone call. i called them. nothing. surgerons office heard nothing but my doctor did, i went in to see her cause my bp felt to high i was dizzy my bp medication was making me ill. so i thought. i go in she informs me. ohhhhhhhhhh crap! its not your bp this lap work shows you diabetic. but she never seen it like that. not in my fasting, this was in my a1, my hemo. she said this is weird one is fine one is not! i dont get it. how could that possible be both should be the same.! noooo.. that wasnt true either. i was fasting i didnt have anything to drink or eat of course im going to have a very normal fasting. i didnt drink sugar before that test. like she made me do 100times before! thats why it wasnt showing up! today i went to see the surgron and gain it was a oh shit moment, he excused him self, and my pa walked in. asked me what are you doing about your sugar. i said not a damn thing! she said check your blood sugar, twice a day i want you to take this medication twice a day, but for 30 days i want you to take it once a day. lol that machine lies! its not a breeze its not easy, its full of CRAP! i had to poke my self 12 times just to get enough blood then it said it was to low, so i wasted a damn strip, not once but 3 times! just till i figured it out. ERRR it was 107 premeal, after dinner i dont know. i only had a few bits of cerel, rasin brand, and i had half of a banana before i rushed out to the docotors this morning. he stressed for me not to skip, meals, 3times aday. but again there was no diet to follow foods to avoid, except SUGAR! my doctor said, stay away from diet stuff, eat natural sugars, likes fruits veggies, and to limit the among of sugar i needed aday