Trying to come out of "The River of Denial"...

By Roxie L Sunday, December 23, 2007

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SIGH...Where do I begin? I was diagnosed as a diabetic in 1995..Hard to believe that it's been 13 years. I have steadilly gone from one pill a day to two, three + Lantus and now Humalog as well. All because of "denial". I work in the medical field, and know full well the complications associated with uncontrolled diabetes. And still I have been acting as tho, I am "normal", whatever that is.

All I know is that I continually eat sweets, carbs and whatever I want, except for artificial sweeteners in my tea or coffee, go figure. Not sure who I am trying to fool, except maybe, myself.

I'm tired of running and hiding from the truth. The truth, is I AM A DIABETIC. It is treatable, it is manageable and it is not the end of the world. I have gained right at 100 pounds in the last 30 years. Which in fact, is probably the single most contributing factor, besides my 'gene' pool. So, hopefully by committing to this blog, I have taken the first step in taking control of my life.

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metaour

12/30/07 8:55am

This is the first time on this site... and to read this is like reading my own writing!

I was diagnosed in 2002(?). I have done the medicines and tried dieting but I cannot stick to it. Now neuropathy is starting up and I am in an immense amount of pain. The pain inhibits my exercise and the vicious cycle continues!

Thank you for posting... I am trying to accept and take control... reading that I am not alone in the way I'm thinking helps!

Vicki M

2/ 3/08 9:57am

Hi Metaour!

I just posted a bunch of links for Roxie L, so I won't post those again, but want to let you know we're here if you have questions, or want to vent about a challenging day, or share some good news, or bad news. There is a huge community of folks here ready to listen!! Just send out a note on a share post!

Stay in touch and let us know how you're doing!!

Vicki M

metaour

2/ 3/08 10:17am

Thank you... I am trying hard to accept this and to take total control!!! I just wish my body would cooperate more Cry

Vicki M

2/ 3/08 9:55am

Hi Roxie L,

Don't beat yourself up over this. You might have ignored alot in the past, but today is the beginning of the rest of your life. Live well and live long and there are many folks here who are in the same situation who are happy to share their experiences and help support you as you get your diabetes under control.

This is a great place for help when you are feeling down. I know when I first started working on my diabetes, I wasn't doing very well. I wasn't on insulin because I am insulin resistant, but that seemed to make it even more difficult. Then there was the issue of trying to learn to give up pastas and rice. (ouch!)

Being in the healthcare field you already know most of what I am going to pass along here, but it never hurts to reread and refresh yourself. There are some great resources here on Health Central and here are a few links to them.

The first thing I read when I came to Health Central was the overview about diabetes located here.It's a great place to start and it is updated with the latest information as it comes out.

Then I moved on to the symptoms because I realized that I had symptoms I was not expecting and I did not exhibit symptoms I thought I should which contributed to my not getting medical help for some time. The symptoms list is located here.

Then I started looking into the medications I was being prescribed. Found out why some drugs were causing certain effects and others weren't working well. The drug database is located here.

Finally, I figured, there has to be a better way and I checked into the treatment database to learn about new treatments and new protocols. I have also been an avid reader of David Mendosa for sometime (profile shareposts)

Most of all, there is this fantastic community here of people just like you living it all one day at a time. If you ever feel the need to vent or want to share a particularly good day for you, or just need to ask a question, or even share tips like recipes and such, feel free to post and lots of folks will answer.

Stay in touch and let us know how you're doing!

Vicki M

metaour

2/ 3/08 10:16am

Vicki,

I tried all of the links you had and they could not be found... Could you check them out & repost it (when you have time)... They look like they would be great links... I am especially interested in meds & side effects... I feel like a drugstore ... taking sooooo much!

Mary

Trying to come out of "The River of Denial"...

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