This Disease Gives You a Right for Not Taking Responsiblity? Give me a Break!

My husband is a type 1 diabetic and believe me, when his blood sugar runs high and low, it's a really KILLER to our marriage. He never wants to take responsibility for his emotional level, so therefore absolutely refuses to check himself claiming that it's all my fault and being a *****. Well, gee, I wonder why that should come about?!!!!! We're having a wonderful weekend and all of a sudden he's yelling at the dog, proviking it to bark so he can yell at it, or just provoking me for the same reason. I finally get him to check himself and guess what, he's 298. When it comes to he's the only one making any money in the house and feeling sorry for Poor Him, I finally get him to check himself and, yup, his blood sugar is 48.

Hey, get a grip and take responsibility. It's tough on all of us. I'm trying to find a spouse that has to go through this stuff and find out how they deal with it. This is really getting old.

20 years married to a diabetic and really HATING this **** disease!

I love my husband, but really HATE the fact that he expects me to cater to his disease and he doesn't place our marriage first and foremost above his disease.  Why?  Isn't our marriage worth it?  Isn't our relationship worth it?  If it weren't for him not taking responsibility for his reactions to blood sugar highs and lows, this would be a perfect marriage.  I feel like I'm losing my best friend.  I have no one else to turn to with this.  Please help me find how to get through to him.  I really fear at times for our marriage and most importantly losing my best friend.