So what does the number on the scare really mean? Apparently, I've had it all wrong. I know in the past I've said that the number isn't as important as how your clothes fit, but at the end of the day I was still determined to see that number drop. But after this discovery, I think I am finally ready to let my shape and my clothes decide how I'm doing, and not the scale. I know that my muscles are getting leaner and stronger, and my body is growing healthier. I may not ever look like Sandy, but I'll just have to end up as the best version of me. I hope that other women suffering from poor body image encounter their own Sandy, or at least take these words to heart. It's really not about the number. It's about our strength, determination, and hard work. Beauty and fitness aren't determined by some number, and even though I still wouldn't mind making it to 130, I know that what I look like means far more than what I weigh.

[1] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Body_dysmorphic_disorder