It's been almost a month since the wedding and as the excitement begins to wind down and the stress melts away, I can't help but to daydream about the future. Although I know I will be happily enjoying the fun of being a newlywed for a good while, parenthood is definitely a part of our plans. I'm not in a rush by any means, but it's something I know I want and feel excited about. At age thirty-one, I am still very much healthy enough to think about starting a family, but the practical albeit somewhat scaredy-cat side of me worries that time will run out fast. Although I've heard about plenty of women who give birth to healthy babies well into their forties, I know that our risks begin to increase starting at thirty-five. I have always wanted to be a mom. And the planner inside me is saying, "Let's be done in the next six years." Yay! A new goal to work towards. But before I can even think about diapers and onesies, I know have to get my body to a better place.
Being overweight to begin with scares me. I don't want to start off on the wrong foot and end up twice my size after my child is born. I've seen friends just blow up during their pregnancies because they think they have to eat for two, literally, and they have never recovered. Even the "skinny" ones. So first things first. I need to buckle down on the diet or at least commit to a healthier lifestyle. Period. I've been trying unsuccessfully for over a year to lose the weight and get to my goal. I have certainly learned a lot about inner beauty, faith, love, hard work, play, and yes, diet and exercise. I still can't say why I have been unable to lose the weight, except that I haven't been truly committed. Maybe the prospect of motherhood will get my butt in gear for good.
Besides finally getting on track with my eating and exercise habits, I am also determined to get my hormones balanced once and for all. That's right, I said hormones. Over the past two years, I've learned quite a bit about how healthy hormones play a major role in weight, mood, and clear skin. I thought I owed most of my perceived success with balanced hormones to the birth control pill. This amazing little pill has kept me cramp-free, acne-free, and/or baby-free for seventeen years. Unfortunately, every time I have ever tried to go off of it for any given reason, my body reacts with absolutely horrendous mood swings, breakouts of cystic acne, and the most hideous cramps known to man. What does this mean? Well, knowing what I know now from working in the holistic health industry, it means that my body has gotten so used to the effects of the pill that it's living a total lie. It's been in a state of hormonal limbo for so long that I only thought this was the norm. In reality, our bodies are not meant to live in that state for so long, and I know I need to quit.
One component of having a baby, naturally, is getting off the pill. I know I have to do it but I'm absolutely terrified. Last time I tried, I thought I was going to need group therapy and celebrity skin treatments. This time, I have the ticking biological clock as motivation to try again, but that only makes things a little easier. Luckily, I work in an environment where I'm surrounded by knowledgeable and caring people who are willing to support me in the process. Today, I spoke to my new manager who also happens to be very experienced in women's health. I told her that I had a goal to be off of the pill this time next year, and would like to spend the time leading up getting ready for the fallout. She assured me that with a few changes to my diet and the right supplements, the transition wouldn't be as bad as it had been in the past and I'm likely to gain some other health benefits from the changes...like weight loss! So I'm excited to start on this new year-long path to healthiness, and having such a big goal in mind really puts things into perspective. Now, I'm not just doing this for me. That definitely makes a difference, because that's how I've always worked. Maybe that's the missing piece. I guess we'll find out...
Published On: November 19, 2010