so hard after all the pain

After living with genital herpes for the past two years of my high school life, many bad things had come out of it. From ex-best friends telling the entire school you have the disease,and having to constantly knowingly lie to each and every person who walked up to me and asked me  alot of these people i've known since kindergarden, to meeting someone very special and waiting along time before becoming physical to now being in love with this person but not having the heart or strength to tell them. How do I after all the pain I've gone through potenially tell this person I have this disease and not expect them to run away as fast as I would if I found out the person I love or supposedly love had this? how do I tell them I ruined my own life?