Feeling Totally DOWN!

The last time I has sexual relations was in 1988, Yes 1988.  I didn't start to have symptoms until 4/06.  I had a swab test done and it came back negative however, I kept getting a sore in my vaginal.  Finally by Gyno did a blood test that came back positive for HSV2 I was just told on 10/1/09.  I cannot stop crying and I feel sick to my stomach.  I am so ashamed. I don't know what type of doctors take care of people like me.  My Gyno was very rude and told me to do reasearch on the internet and call her back with any questions I had.  If I am rambling it due to the fact I am totally lost.  Please pray for me!