This is ridiculous

I nicely received genital herpes while I was travelling, 5 months ago. I was so happy at that time, when I received my diagnostic, I did not even understand what it was...what it really was. That all my live, I would have to face it. I have like a really severe case which appeared 8 times while I was travelling. I've been through everything that I never though possible. I always tell myself that I could have get worse, but this sentence seems to be less and less comforting. I am so new in that world, I know nobody having the same problem as me, even another disease...I am facing that with people who don't think its that bad.anyway, I dont even think I will have a boyfriend in the next 10 years...that seems so impossible to me.