How do I face this?

Your story is so identical to mine but I haven't told a soul. I can't. I don't know what to do. I don't even want to see or talk to anyone. I'm so angry I feel like I could kill the person who gave it to me. He won't even text or call me back. Piece of shit! Girl this is so difficult. I am so broken. I'm so sorry about the relationship thing. The guy I like has no clue. We were going to have sex last night but I bailed on him then this morning when I had my bloodwork done I lost it. Were not together either. He keeps askin me why I'm trippin and I just keep tellin him Im sick right now and I cant talk. He is gettin mad at me for not tellin him why I'm buggin. Ahhhhhh!!!! :( shoot me?

I'm a 24 y.o. female and just found out today that i have it.  My story is a bit different than the ones posted.  I've had a boyfriend of 10 months who DOES NOT have it.  I went to the doc twice in the past (approx 14 months ago) for my first couple of "outbreaks" and they told me BOTH times that I had molluscum contangiosum, and never mentioned anything of herpes.  But third times a charm, and when I went to  a different doc this time, they broke the bad news.  Luckily and thankfully, when my boyfriend and I had sex, we always used condoms.  I broke the news to him today and he's having a really hard time with it.  He's debating whether to break up with me now, or to stay with me and risk getting herpes for the rest of his life.  This is harder than I ever imagined and quite possibly the worst thing that's ever happened to me.  I am such a normal person.  I have a college degree, a great job, a wonderful family, supportive friends, and a loving boyfriend (but maybe not anymore).  Does anyone have any advice for me to help cope with this devastating life event?  Or what I can tell the man that I love to stay with me and to not give up? 

hello,

I know exactly how you feel, and sympathizes with you. I am 27 years old & feel disgusted & frustrated with myself for the past month & A half.  I never in the 10 years that I have been having sex did so unprotectedly out of scaredness of getting pregnant.  I was always in a commited relationship so I never thought in a million years that someone I trusted would do something like this to me. 
Then I met him. The guy I wanted after having dating a few jerks. I trusted him from the beginning because we had great communication & so I figured I had nothing to worry about. I was sadly mistaken. After doing the deed without protection, a few days go by that he is not showing interest to say the least, I get a dreaded phone call from him & he tells me over the phone. This guy is also 27, definitely not mature enough to be man to come & be with me while telling me this information. I am so stunned all I can do is get off the phone & ball my eyes out. I cried for about 25 minutes, while calling the dr. office to make the most horrible appoinment ever. He then decides to be a little more manly by coming to see me. Then he wants to make our relationship official....best part is now to come...so we are happy & sort of dealing...it's been about a month now & the other day, he decides he is only 25% in this relationship & doesn't want to be in it. So now I am here, feeling disgusting and alone & I could only handle telling 2 of the closest people to me so they would understand why I was so upset the "relationship" was over but they can't comfort me they way I need to be and now not even the jerk that gave me this gross disease & then left me wants to talk or be with me after a great beginning....I am sad, scared and unsure how to move forward in order for others not to know, to handle being so sad that he is now gone, maybe forever, and how to begin another relationship... this is very upsetting....

I am a 30 y.o. female who was given the "official" bad news last Thursday... I was in and out of the Dr's office the past year for bacterial infections but never had any lesions.  I have only been with my boyfriend for a little over 2 months and he just went to get tested yesterday, all I could do for 2 weeks when I first went to the Dr with the gut feeling that they weren't going to have anything positive to say was cry and worry about losing him.  He was upset - with right but I was open with him as soon as I suspected something and he didn't run, nor do I think he is planning on it.  I apologized for ruining his life as we had unprotected sex and all he said was "you didn't ruin my life, I'm not gonna die from it, if I have to take a blue pill once in a while I'll take a blue pill".  I like to believe there are other men out there that will treat women who treat them with respect with the same in return.  He hasn't told me he loves me yet but the fact that he hasn't run for the hills is enough and I realize that life will go on...it isn't "perfect" but it is livable and I thank God everyday that all I got was herpes. I NEVER thought I would be so grateful to have only recieved one STD but give Thanks where it is dur and remember that God won't give you more than you can handle, dig deep and find faith.  I don't know where I got it and I'm at peace with that, I like to believe that the men I have been with cared about me enough that if they knew they had it they would have been up front with that information.