How do I face this?

I have been living with herpes for 9 months now. I feel all the emotions that everyone else has posted on here. I feel hopless, dirty, used, and the things that hurt the most are that -I can't possibly brind myself to ever date again, -This could cause me to never have the family I have always dreamed of. I feel alone. The only way I can even try to deal with this is by praying. I am a very religious person. I never thought that I would get this by just having sex with my ex boyfriend. I thought I could trust him. When I told him he gave me the virus.. he made it seem like he didn't even know he had it. I try to forget about it and hang out with friends. If a guy trys to talk to me I have to give him the cold shoulder. This is not the life I planned. No one knows about this except my ex. I am dealing with this alone. I don't know how much longer I can do this.