This is kinda sketchy for me. Just talking about my feelings about having Herpes online, where millions can probably read it. Im young, and still learning to live with Herpes. I recently found out that I transmitted the virus to two previous partners and It's really been affecting me. Knowing exactly how they feel, confusion, hurt, gross. It just makes me want to cry. I dont know what to do anymore. No one talks to me in my family because of my sexual orientation, and my physician isn't exactly nice. Im still in highschool, and having to go to school while having outbreaks which are actually really bad ones is making it difficult. Its just so consumming. I dont exactly understand what this site is for, but ill just write what I feel like writting. I dont think I feel depressed about it, shit, if I do, I shoulda felt depressed long before hand. Im also from a french background, and attend a french school. They dont offer any real support apart from pamflets. The guy that gave it to me never told me, well, I prolly wasnt in condition to understand anyway, thats what happens when you drug yourself at raves eh. In a way I tell myself I deserve it, but then i look at my body and i just wanna cry. Atleast I have my room-mates that are alwayz there for me. Its nice to know that im not alone, really nice. I dont know anyone with Herpes, and none of my friends know any either. So i feel just like im out there with some weird decease.