Sunday, May 08, 2011
I have been with my boyfriend for the past six months and four days ago i was diagnosed with genital herpes. I am scared, completely embaressed and disgusted in myself. I told him and he said he doesn't know if he has it and has never experienced any symptoms. He is being supportive but I feel like my life is over. I feel I can't be loved, get married, or have children. Im only 22 and this diagnosis makes me feel sick. I can't even go to the bathroom or shower without crying. I just need some support and I dont know who to talk to.
hey, i was diagnosed with genital herpes about a yr ago and im barly 23 yrs old. i have been with my boyfriend for almost 5 yrs to this month. And i felt the same way u are feeling right now. I still cant get use to the fact that i wont have a reg. life like every other person. but i take it day by day. i never had any other relationship b4..so I could really understand how I managed to get herpes in the first place.and it turns out my Bf doesnt have it neither cuz he was tested and showed that im the only one with this thing. i felt so bad when i found out .. I wanted to cry so hard but i didnt want people to have any idea, so I dealt with the horrible pain by myself. I have only told 3 people in my life about this problem and i still feel disgusted about it. I sometimes wonder why me? i never did anything bad to get punished this way. but i guess it happened for a reason. Im glade that ur BF is supporting you, the same way mine is supporting me. And im also glade to have found this site cuz i have been wondering in how other people with the same problem, feel. Maybe we can go this problem together cuz im finding new things all the time. I just get scared in thinking about my future and if I’ll be able to start a family one day. But I guess I have to wait and find out. Well I hope this helped a little, and that you know ur not alone. =)
Thanks so much for commenting and letting me know Im not alone. Its hard to feel people understand when I can't talk to many people about it. Ive told a few very close friends but they don't really know what to say. I found out through the health department my diagnosis and now I need to call my doctor which is also scary. I don't understand if i will be on medication every day or just for a breakout. Is there anything you have found that makes you have less breakouts. THis is my first one and I don't know how often I wil have them, but its so uncomfortable. I'm just worried and confused about so many aspects of my life now and waiting for the rest of the results to come back because they did a full std screening with a blood test. My mind is going all over the place and this week is finals and I won't find the results out for a week. I know this is going to be hard for a while but Im hoping it will get better in time and the rest of my results will be fine.