I found out that I had herpes when I got a blister around sept 17th 2008.  I also felt many of the things that you are feeling.  I went through a lot with my last boyfriend.  I went through emotional pain etc...throughout the relationship he judged me.  When I met him I was struggling with some things emotionally.  He was not very kind to me. Ironically I did not get it from him. He judged me all along, even before both of us knew I had herpes.   All I want you to know is that I have relied on a lot of different things to get through this.  Number one, my mom had to come take care of me because I was crying all of the time, not eating and heavily depressed.  In addition, about a year before I had my genital blister, I had had a series of yeast infections back to back and I even changed my diet. ( It was probably the antibodies from herpes I was developing). I thought it had to do with my eating habits and the fact that I was sleeping with my boyfriend without condoms and I felt it was changing the ph of my vagina. Well... I have relied on God first and for most.  I have relied on my mom and her prayers.  I have relied on two excellent gyn doctors.  A very good female gyn doctor that discussed my diet with me.  Your diet should be high on foods that have a higher ratio of lysine vs. arginine.  You need to avoid nuts, caffeine, alcohol, processed sugars, chocolates and anything that lowers your immune system.  You need to eat the following things, veggies, fish, fresh fruits, particularly beet juice mixed with other fruits, and dark grape juice made in a juicer.  I have a much longer list of foods, but i can't seem to find it at this right moment.  Second of all, I am on the suppressive 1 gram a day valtrex medication, so I don't get outbrakes.  Now, that's not necessary for everyone, but for me it is.  The reason why I needed to get on the suppressive is because I have my genital blister in a place full of nerves in my genitalia, and due to that I ended up developing something called genital postherpetic neuralgia.  Its constant nerve pain which hurts and burns throughout the day even when I don't have a blister.  Right now I am being treated with anticonvulsants for the nerve pain.  The medication is called Lyrica and I am hoping it will help me with the nerve pain, and I need to stay optimistic and positive that it will, as it can be a chronic condition ( a condition one lives with on a day to day basis).  Next,  I was fortunate to find excellent doctors that were able to diagnosed and begin treating my condition, as it has now become a central nervious neurological condition.  So as you can imagine, that is why I am on Valtrex suppressive therapy. I can not afford to get another blister.  I also, became so depressed over this that my therapist, (I was fortunate that I have been in therapy for  a few years), who had never seen me so depressed, suggested I start taking some antidepressant, antianxiety medication, and obsessive compulsive medication ( all in one single pill in the morning).  Its called lexapro 15 milligrams.  The reason why I need to take it right now, is that since I am in constant pain, the psychotropic medication releases some chemicals that help me with my pain receptors in the brain so I also feel less pain/ and I am not as depressed in pain thinking that my life is over. I take half of a klonopin pill .5 to be able to sleep at night and get less anxious, as this herpes was giving me a panic attack and nightmares.  Now, the Obssessive compulsive tendencies developed because everytime I had an Itch , I would think that it was a yeast infection like before ( I ve had so many of them and so severe that only nyastatin for 2 weeks vaginal inserts work). I also take 2 tablespoons of liquid acidophillus I keep in the refrigerator in the morning and at nite. I would get all worried about eating carbs etc.. or anything that could give me a yeast infection.So I was so depressed, and worried I stopped eating and dropped to 98 pounds, after being 116 pounds.  Now, I want you to know that I am a beautiful 34 year old woman inside and out.  Right now, I am in constant pain due to the neuralgia to the point that I have worried about how this will affect my future sex life and children rearing practices.  I know I shouldn't get stressed, or eat chocolates (they have arginine). You know, as I have now began going through this journey, now I realize what's really important in my life.  I took my health for granted before, now I don't anymore.  This has been the most humbling experience of my life. It humbled me to the ground.  If I was a good person before, now I don't take anything for granted and I am even a better person.  The times that I feel good are precious now.  I was withdrawn and did not want to see my friends or socialize for a while, especially before I knew I had neuralgia.  All I new at the time is that the pain would not go away after the blister went away and did not know why.  I was desperate and walked into my gyn office in despair.  Telling my story to the people who love me and care about me has helped me tremendously ( family and friends).  At work my boss has been so helpful with me and my doctor's appointments.  My friends are being extremely supportive.  I now know that I don't need to rely on the approval of any man, so I can feel worth it.  Herpes, slowly but surely has changed my life completely, but in the long run it has already started making me a better person.  I suffer from a skin dermatitis in addition to genital herpes and yeast infections in my genitalia.  Its hereditary from mom, the dermititis is called lichen symplex chronicus.  You know what, if everyone tells me I will probably be ok, then you must believe that you will too.  Imagine if you were in my shoes.  Just count your lucky stars and your blessings.  At least you don't have all of the extra things I have, and that's a blessing in itself.  Also, love yourself no matter what.  Men will come and go at times, but God, your parents, your family and friends won't abandone you.  I wish I could help you more.  As a matter of fact google christopher scipio.  He wrote a homeopathic book on treating herpes holistically.  Its an amazing book. Get it through amazon.com  .  Trust me if I did not have a neurological condition as a result of this herpes I would be going holistic myself.  Also google a list of foods that have lysine vs. arginine and follow that to help you reduce outbrakes.  If I can someday be ok, then you must certainly be ok.  We need to have blind faith.  I really wish I could be more helpful... I hope this will give you some ideas about your course of treatment.  But definitely google scipio's book.  I read it and thought it was excellent.