I am having a difficult time at the moment. Everything seemed so perfect almost a month ago, and now it feels like everything is falling apart on me. About a month ago I told my guy that I had genital herpes, and he responded unbelievably well. Well, everything fell apart within a week; this last week to be exact. I'm not sure what happened. To be honest, I feel he couldn't take me having genital herpes. I could tell he was getting frustrated that we were not having sex. He got distant, and then we just stopped talking. We only dated for 3 months. I have lost boyfriends after a year, and I haven't been this torn up about a break up. But, I think it is difficult because I feel we ended due to the herpes. I know I'll be ok, and I was dealing with the break up well until this morning. I noticed I am having my 2nd outbreak. I feel it is life's sick way of rubbing it in my face on why he ran away. I'm sure it is the stress I have been going through, plus I have turned to candy to sooth my wounds which isn't the best food to be eating. But, why did this have to happen now. I was getting to the point where I was ok with having this virus, and at this moment, I feel like I'm back to square one of hating myself. I also don't know if I should go fill my antivirals for this outbreak. To be honest, I am really embarrassed to go to the pharmacy, and I feel like I should just ride this outbreak out. Right now it is just one bump, but I would hate for it to get worse when I could have helped it by getting on antivirals. I need some encouraging words. I know things will get better within time, but right now I'm feeling so down and hopeless.



the second break out is probably because of the stress. remember, when going to the pharmacy, medication used for herpes is also the same for people who have shingles or chicken pox or other thigns such as this so the pharmacy shouldn't automatically jump to herpes. i'm sorry about your guy but the one who will love you for you will be able to deal with this head on and not run from it like maybe your guy has done. i would save yourself some pain and go to the pharmacy. it will at least make life a little bit easier for you in this tough time.