2nd Outbreak

I am having a difficult time at the moment. Everything seemed so perfect almost a month ago, and now it feels like everything is falling apart on me. About a month ago I told my guy that I had genital herpes, and he responded unbelievably well. Well, everything fell apart within a week; this last week to be exact. I'm not sure what happened. To be honest, I feel he couldn't take me having genital herpes. I could tell he was getting frustrated that we were not having sex. He got distant, and then we just stopped talking. We only dated for 3 months. I have lost boyfriends after a year, and I haven't been this torn up about a break up. But, I think it is difficult because I feel we ended due to the herpes. I know I'll be ok, and I was dealing with the break up well until this morning. I noticed I am having my 2nd outbreak. I feel it is life's sick way of rubbing it in my face on why he ran away. I'm sure it is the stress I have been going through, plus I have turned to candy to sooth my wounds which isn't the best food to be eating. But, why did this have to happen now. I was getting to the point where I was ok with having this virus, and at this moment, I feel like I'm back to square one of hating myself. I also don't know if I should go fill my antivirals for this outbreak. To be honest, I am really embarrassed to go to the pharmacy, and I feel like I should just ride this outbreak out. Right now it is just one bump, but I would hate for it to get worse when I could have helped it by getting on antivirals. I need some encouraging words. I know things will get better within time, but right now I'm feeling so down and hopeless.