how do i move on

i gave my hsband herpes contracted it from a man i fell in love with fell out of love with my husband after 19 years of a alcoholic marriage. husband quit drinking we have a 9 and 14 year old daughters. i had left my husband when i fell in love with the man whom i contracted herpes 2 from he did not know he had it. i coulnt believe a 19 year marrage was over he quit drinking i had to try and work on our marrage was never able to give up the man i fell in love with. we both tried because with me being home we know it is not right. my husband broke out in feb 2009 was tested and the cat is out of the bag i was tested also poistive the man i fell in love with was tested poitive. my husband wants to keep trying he doesnt know i still love someone else. i am not in love with my husband . i want to move on but cant deal with the guilt of leaving him with this disease how will he ever move on and meet someone? i live unhappy trying to make everyone think things are fine  hardly ever smile or laugh anymore. has anyone triedquickclear,viralprin,detox back to health minerals anyones advice would be apreaciated