I found out I has HPV positive, after someone I knew took advantage of me one night after a night of heavy drinking. I didn't educate myself well on the virus. All I did was read the handout, and talked to the doctor. Since I didn't have a cervical cancer, I thought everything would be alright if I maintain a healthy lifestyle... A few months later I started seeing someone, and didn't even think about the hpv and the other risks. I had unprotected sex with a four partners, without even thinking about the HPV.
I recently had a nervous breakdown in front of all my friends, and the last guy I has unprotected sex. I was hospitilized, and since I've been out I've been very depressed that all the friends I thought I had no longer speak to me. Recently I started noticing these sores on my butt. After a lot of reserch, and education I am positive it is genital warts. I feel like the worst person in the world, I don't deserve to live. I let this happen, because of my irresponsibility. I don't know how to even confront the people I've infected, because they all know each other through me. I don't want to live, and I don't have the courage to take my own life.
My dreams of finding true love and someday building my own family are shattered. These men I've infected didn't deserve this, and how to I bring myself to admit that I'm at fault. Please I need encouraging advice, and suggestions on how to deal with this.
hi lost soul
here is my story wich i never told anyone save the man who gave me hpv who knows about it,i contracted hpv with the first guy i had sexual intercourse with,this guy hurt me the worst possible way you could ever think of.he broke up with mi first then i was a virgin if i could turn back the hands of time i should never had had sex with him at all.later i was distraught i though hanving sex with him would bring him back to mi but no he cheated on mi so much the time si caught him are many,the first tym i was diagnosed with candida i experienced itching and a discharge was coming out he took mi to a doctor i got treated later on i discovered that i had herpes i had sores all over my vagina peeing was just painful i went to the doctor then i discovered a wart the worst news to be broken to mi i had contracted a series of stds in one sexual encounter i loathe the day the condom broke it changed my life,i couldn't move on how do i even start a new relationship with any guy knowing that i have an incurable sti worse of i was stuck i thot so low of myself the worst i can ever feel the outbreaks where even worse but with time we did talk things over and we are getting married yes you may thnk am the dumbest person alive but i am learning to forgive at times when i am havin an outbreak i hate him i ask my self why me evn when we were not dating i had guys ask mi out but i couldn't how do i start explaining my sexual past oh hi i had candida,warts herpes you name the whole lot!i even thot of committing suicide a couple of times,now i am managing my herpes i live another day i am getting stronger right now i am havin a horrible outbreak the worst you can think of but i try to be strong.lost soul i feel yo pain i feel you everything you feel.