Thursday, October 01, 2009
I just received the phone call about my blood test telling me that I did in fact have herpes. My boyfriend is going to get a blood test, my doctor for some reason thinks he is the carry who gave it to me because the time frame in which my symptoms began. My concern is what if it was him who gave it to me but me who gave it to him or what if he DOESN'T have? Tracking the carrier of disease could be hard, especially if its from someone who has never showed symptoms or outbreaks, so they never knew they had it. We talked about speaking with past partners about it, but that is a very difficult thing to do for me. Any thoughts?
I don't think it helps anyone even if you tell your past lovers about your disease, they will find out if they have it or not, but that's all. There is no way to find out who gave who and when. It can be transmitted by a person without symptoms or don't know that they even have it. Telling your past lovers means you are advertising that you have it. Even if you won't tell them they will find out soon or later or they will never know if they won't have the symptoms. I know it's very frustrating dealing with this disease. Remember, this can happen to anyone even if you are a nice, smart, and wonderful person. This disease won't make you less. This is something you have to deal with. That is the fact. You fell in love and had unprotected sex and you get it. STD sounds bad, but you are still same precious person. All you can do is take care of yourself. Try to eat better and avoid stressful situation (having this is stressful though). I'm not sure if this helped. I wanted tell you what's in my mind. You are not alone.