living scared and alone

Hi my name is Beth and I am in my twenties.  Almost a year ago, I was raped and he gave me HSV-1 genitally.  I am a single mom of two kids and I wanted my life to be over.   I am in love with a man who I was intimate with before this incident and we took a break.  Wehn he came back I was faed with telling him about the HSV and he tried for 6 months, but couldn't handle the stress of maybe getting the std.  I am on daily Valtrex and have not had an outbreak since my first one.  He still talks to me, but he says he can't be with me right now because of my issue.  I am beginning to wonder if there will be anyone who will be with me or if he will realize how much he loves me and come back, or if I will be alone for the rest of my life .

I am terrified and very sad.  I just wish there were a cure to make it go away.  I was forced into this situation and I feel so trapped.