I feel worthless

By Angela1988 Friday, July 02, 2010

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It hasn't even been a week yet and i feel horrible. I know who gave it to me but i dnt even think he knows he has it, so its really hard for me to deal with. i have told my bestfriends about it but they dnt know how i feel nd they dnt like talkin about it because they feel bad for me. this wasnt in my lifeplan. I dnt feel like any man would want to be with me after this. I have never wanted children but knowing that I may never be able to have them makes me want them so I get depressed everytime I see a baby....... I FEEL LIKE SHIT. I feel contaminated and worthless!!!

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turtle

7/ 8/10 7:28pm

you can still have kids. i have herpes too by a guy cheating on me which he said he did not know she had i now i have to and still ajusting to having it and my mom got me a pamphlet about genital herpes. in the pamphlet it talks about having kids and you can but if you have a blister or sores at time of delivery the doctor will have to do a cesarean. you can still breastfeed without infected your child.however the baby can get infected by touching a blister or sore on your breast.so don't be sad and give up hope

signed, turtle

stylez

7/13/10 12:50pm

I recently found out i have type I herpes but mine is genital, yes I said type I genital herpes. I was dying for almost 2 wks because of the discomfort but I sometimes feel the same way, no one will want me, but you know what, when you find that true person they will understand and yes, you can have children, like the other person posted, as long as you don't have an outbreak during delivery or otherwise, have a c-section. Don't give up, you will be fine.

SmileEyes

7/22/10 2:32am

A few months before we got married, my husband went on a trip to Brazil for a month to visit his friends and family. When he came back, I saw 3 spots on his penis that I hadn't seen before. He sincerely insisted that it was nothing and I believed him. Shortly after, I had my first genital herpes out break. At the time I had no idea what it was and never thought in a million years that I would have that.

Over the past year I've had several outbreaks, finally prompting me to get tested. Sure enough it is genital herpes. I am devestated. For the past month I have had one outbreak after another. I am super stressed at work and we are moving, so I think that's why.

I also feel disgusting and horrible. The real shitty part is that my husband insists that he couldn't have given it to me because I must have had it before we met. Since that one time I saw those spots on his penis, he hasn't had an outbreak, but I know that sores are not necessarily visible and that some people are carriers.

Now I feel robbed of my body and a normal sex life because of long periods of abstinence during outbreaks.

This is deeply upsetting and I cry at night thinking about this life long curse.

hear me now

7/29/10 12:08am

I as well have type 1 genital herpes. I'm not sure who I got it from but it was before I had even lost my virginity. it has been about 6 months now since I was diagnosed, and till this day its hard for me to even say out loud that I have it. I was homecoming queen and had the "perfect life" (or so everyone thought). so believe me, I understand what you mean by this not being a part of your life plan. Trust me though, there are respectful guys out there who will over see it. It's not AIDS or something you will die from. Just a little bump in the road (no pun intended). Be strong and on those days you have a break out and you feel ugly, just look in the mirror and see how beautiful you are. And if a guy cant see that, then he isnt worth it.

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