Is this really happening?

I went for a test today after suffering with severe discomfort for a few days. Chances are, I have herpes. When my doctor told me I laughed...I thought it was a sick joke. Earlier last year I battled an aggressive HPV infection (which was given to me by a stranger who took my virginity while I was drunk). After that long and painful experience (unlike a lot of people, I had to go through several grueling treatments) I swore I would never have sex again. But when it finally went away, I ventured out again.

I really wish I hadn't. I've had two other partners since then and one of them most likely gave me herpes--eventhough I made sure they wore condoms. I can't describe how depressed, dirty, disappointed, and just plain ashamed I am feeling. The first time I got an STD was bad enough..but this is permanent! I can't imagine telling a potential partner that I have an incurable disease. This has changed my views on STDs drastically...I admit I used to be one of those people who would never have sex with someone with an STD. Now I have no choice..I am one of those people. I am sure many of you have been there before..but god! I really wish I had someone to talk to about this. I can't tell anyone and worse, my parents are suspicious because they saw my Valtrex prescription.

Enough babbling I guess...my real question (and I hope this is allowed here) is what steps you took when you first contracted the virus. My first instinct is to go out and buy everything. Coconut oil. Monolaurin. Grape Fruit Seed extract. Tea tree oil. MSM cream. Garlicell. A variety of vitamins to boost my immune system. But I realize that not only is this too expensive, it also is probably misguided (I visited bestherpes.com and left dizzy..there's just too much! I need more streamlined guidance). Does anyone have any good recommendations for treatments that aren't prescription? Like I said I am taking Valtrex and the doctor also recommended Zovirax (I have yet to purchase either..I am starting with samples). I just want to not suffer so much and suppress my outbreak ASAP.

Thank you so much for reading this message. If anyone out there would like to discuss their experiences with me I'd really greatly appreciate. I know my life isn't over...but deep down inside I can't help but think YES..it is :(