It has been two months since I was diagnosed with herpes.  Although I brought this horrible disease upon myself, I couldn't help but be angry at the world when I had my first outbreak.  Thank god I haven't had another outbreak yet.  I keep wondering how soon it will be until I have another one though.  Like this will help, worrying more and more.  I should have thought about this and many other things when I decided to have an affair.  Anyways, I am dealing better now than before.  I think knowing that I truely am not alone has helped tremendously.  I still have some serious life decisions to make, but I am not  rushing things.  Only time will tell I suppose.  The holidays has helped me to keep my mind off of things, which in a way I am greatful.  On the other hand, it might be bad that I have put things on the "back burner".  I do know one thing, I have to continue to be true to myself and everything else will fall in place, or at least I hope so.